Definitely didn't stick to that game plan....

Hey Hey Hey,
So 4 months later....Here I am! I have not fallen off the face of the earth! Not abandoned my 6-Month Commitment to Singleness! And I DO NOT have it all together yet! But, It has been an interesting journey. Much of which I definitely wish I had written in here. But...I wasn't really blogging (obviously) so I haven't been chronicling my journey online. I also started writing in a journal daily...but I started slacking in that.

Essentially, what I am trying to say is...that although I know that no one read this really anyway, I still feel bad about not writing. I think it would have been therapeutic for myself, and possibly helpful to others. I won't make another promise to write on the regular, because I don't want to break that promise. But maybe I will being sharing some of the things I experience, because there have been some life altering things.

So hopefully I can share that soon... until then..
~K~

Self Talk for a Victorious Woman

 *I wrote this self-talk about 4 years ago, and just started using it again, I hope it is a blessing to someone, and if you want to copy it and use it feel free. It works best if you speak it out loud to yourself... That is why it's called a Self Talk, lol :) *

Self Talk for a Victorious Woman

I am a child of God
I am a VICTORIOUS WOMAN
I am a VIRTUOUS WOMAN
No one can stop me

I will follow God's Words
I will seek His face
He will be my first thought in the morning
and my last thought at night
He is my #1 priority
He is my strength
He is my father, counselor, and friend
Without him I can do nothing
But with him I can do everything

I will not be distracted by the pleasures of this world
I will view men as God's children, not as a potential husband
I will view men as my brothers
People I will treat with absolute purity and brotherly love

I will treat my body as a temple
I will keep it Clean, Pure, and Holy.

I will fill my mind with thoughts that will please God
I will not get distracted or enticed by the lies the enemy tells me


I am a child of God
I am a VICTORIOUS WOMAN
I am a VIRTUOUS WOMAN
No one can stop me
PERIOD

Happy Singles Awareness Day!

Happy Singles Awareness Day: 

Be AWARE that as a SINGLE you can STILL have an ABUNDANT LIFE and you have God's UNCONDITIONAL love (that lasts for more than just a day). There is NO GREATER LOVE than this.. Jesus is the BEST RELATIONSHIP EVER! When you DO find your TRUE LOVE, he/she will be God's GIFT of the best HUMAN LOVE God could offer you! Be patient, and know that RIGHT NOW, you are UNCONDITIONALLY LOVED!

 So, here's some verse about God's Love for you! Have a Blessed Day!!!

John 10:10 (amplified)

"The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance (to the full, till it [a]overflows)" 

John 3:16-17 (amplified)

"For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world that He [even] gave up His only begotten ([a]unique) Son, so that whoever believes in (trusts in, clings to, relies on) Him shall not perish (come to destruction, be lost) but have eternal (everlasting) life. For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him."

^{1 Corinthians 13:4-8: Real Love}

^"Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily. It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong]. It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.

    Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

    Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end]."

 

The Honeymoon...my next 6 months

I haven't posted in a YEAR! (Ok, ok, since last year, but it feels like it's been a year, I had to read my last blog post to see where I even left off!)

I last wrote to you in October of 2010 when I decided to make a Commitment to Purity. I didn't know what that would look like, and I definitely messed up many times before 2010 ended. Since then, I have spoken to some mighty women of God who I admire highly. And they told me about a fast that I am so glad to now be pursuing. I am currently taking a 6-month fast. A fast from dating. A fast from being in romantic relationships.

For background on why I am deciding to do this... Well, meet my 15 year old self. Something tragic happened to someone I love when they were 15 years old. By the time my 15th birthday hit, I was terrified of something bad happening to me when I turned 15. And I subconsciously did everything I could to not be hurt in that way.

The main way I tried to prevent bad things from happening was by being in relationships. I think I can honestly say that I have not been completely single since I was 15 years old. I have either been in a relationship, talking to someone, dating someone, or just emotional attached to someone for the last 8 years. I don't even really know what it means to be a single, Christian woman. And I also realized that I didn't really know what it meant to be in a REAL relationship with God. We all say it, "I'm not religious, I'm in a relationship!"  But I didn't know what that meant. Now I want to know. And so now I am committing the next 6 months to finding that out.

You ask me how I intend to do this? The fast that my friends told me about was based on a book called "Your Knight in Shining Armor" By P.B. Wilson. I ordered it as soon as I could and I finally started reading it this past Sunday. The book is short, so I know I will finish it quickly. After that, I plan to pursue God aggressively.

• Spending daily quiet times with God
• Reading my Bible on a daily basis (actually studying it for understanding)
• Reading other Christian literature that will help me to understand my relationship with Christ better
• Spending time with other people who love God and who want to help me on my journey.

So for the next 6 months, I am SUPER single... to put it better, I am married to God. Am I a little nervous about this decision? Hecks yeah! A LOT can happen in 6 months. I am excited about it now, what if I am not by the time February ends?!? What will I do then? I guess we all will see huh?

I am currently on Day 6 of my fast. If I don't write about this journey, I'm scared I will forget everything that God shows me.  So (now that my computer is back in order) I will be writing now as much as possible. Chronicling. I like the sound of that. This is my Honeymoon period with God. I don't want to forget a moment of it.

If you're a praying person. Pray for me. If you're skeptical about this whole "fast thing," I'm glad. I'm skeptical too. But all I have heard were amazing results, so I am giving it a shot. Maybe from my fast, you will want to try it too.

Until next time,
~K~